Last week I was finishing up some things in the kitchen, it was around 4:10pm. The babies were up and walking around, the older boys had just gotten home from school, Mairin woke up from her nap and all was good. The older boys wanted to go outside and play and of course Mairin followed. I helped get them all ready to go out and then I returned to the kitchen. It was a sunny day with a temp of close to 50 degrees outside. It was about 10 minutes later when Mairin came bursting in through the garage door crying. "Mom mom I tripped and fell and look at my hands". She was covered in mud so I began to clean her up in the kitchen. As I was putting a bandaid on her hand Heidi walks in from work and says, "Heather, why is Declan out in the driveway"? (This is a very very hard story to tell because it really does show just fast these babies can get away from me.) As I went out to get him, Eamon was carrying him in. Declan is our crawler still so luckily he didnt go too far too fast. The worst part for me though was that I didn't even realize I was missing a baby. Many scary thoughts of course are racing thru my head. "How am I going to manage this summer"? "Wow this is going to be harder than I ever thought it would be"?
On Monday I decided that I needed to take the babies outside and see how it would go. Mairin was riding her bike so I knew I had backup but I didn't anticipate what I was in for. Colin immediately took off with a huge smile on his face, Finn was right behind him with a smile. Declan isn't completly walking on his own so I was holding his hand. It wasn't but a minute that Colin had made it to the end of the driveway. I put Declan by the step and then headed off with a slow trott that turned into a run to grab him before he was in the road. While I am running I am saying, "Colin no Colin no" Not working. I finally get Colin and bring him back to the house and while this was happening Finn is heading to the other end of the driveway. I ran to get him and then Colin had taken off again. I told Mairin to get Colin and between the 2 of us we got them into the garage long enough to shut the door. Mairin was crying because she was tired of holding Finn. I just sat down on a chair in a daze and thought to myself about what was going to come. I am literally scared to death of summer coming. What am I going to do? I can't live inside.....
We came in for lunch and I insisted that Mairin take a nap so I told her I would lay with her for a minute. I ended up falling asleep and awoke ...startled because I had a nightmare. Mairin and I were walking in a parking lot and she had roller skates on. She was a couple cars in front of me and all of a sudden someone grabbed her. I was reaching in the car to pull her back but I couldn't save her. It was probably one of the worst dreams I have had in a long time.
I am struggling with the thought of losing my kids and I need to really get a handle on what is going to happen this summer. I talked with David and I think we have agreed on a fence in the backyard so that I can at least know where they are. I need to work with the older 3 to pay more attention to keeping the doors closed and quite frankly I probably need to stop multi tasking as much and keep a closer eye on my escape artists.
I have experienced twins and a single but I will tell everyone out there that this is beyond what I had expected and I am afraid it is only getting worse for at least the next couple of years. Triplets are something completely different and although I am excited for them to walk I think I am going to regret that wish.